SOUL JOURNEY

 

2 years ago today I had never felt so defeated, sad, lifeless & in so much pain. I had lost every spark of passion, joy & zest for life within my soul. 2 years ago today I flew back to Australia from London & arrived home to my wonderful family greeting me with massive hugs as tears rolled down my face.
 
 I looked sick, I had no colour in my skin, I had no energy. I was in a complete state of fear. I hadn't told anyone I was coming home as I was feeling as though I had failed. I had so many dreams that I had achieved yet I still felt like what I had done wasn't good enough. As much as I loved my experience living overseas, the lifestyle wasn't making my soul happy. It had slowly dimmed my light to the point that I was severely depressed & I had adrenal fatigue on the verge of breaking down to chronic fatigue. I felt numb.
 
 It's been a massive 2 years of growth & transformation within myself. It's been an inward journey of love, nourishment & gentleness. It's been releasing pain, sadness & slowly learning to accept every single aspect of my being. It's been a journey of love & nourishment. It's been full of release, tears & heartache & connecting to my heart to blossom into my authentic self.
 
 I learnt how to be gentle to my own heart & to stop beating myself up. I had to learn how to exercise again because my body couldn't handle anything vigorous or how I had trained before. I started yoga, qi gong, meditated more & walked. I wrote from my heart, painted, learnt to rest, spent every minute I could in nature. I couldn't work like I used too, so I changed my routine & I surrounded myself with only those people who lifted me up.
 
 Most people reading this wouldn't of known anything was different within me unless I shared it with you. My family & a couple of close friends have supported me & I am forever grateful for their love through a really vulnerable & painful time.
 As I sit here & write I still have tears rolling down my face as I am in complete awe of where I am 2years later. You really don't know what other people have going on within their journey. Even the people with the biggest smiles can have hearts full of sadness.

 This 2 years cycle has been the most life-changing period of my life. I know my purpose here on earth, my gifts & what lights me up. I've learnt how to honour & nourish my body, create boundaries, receive love, surrender to the pain, release anything that doesn't serve me & to be gentle to myself. I know I am worthy, I know I am enough but most of all as much as each day is a constant journey with this... I completely & utterly love myself wholeheartedly for the beautiful woman I am.
 And that right there is what it's all about. 


#radicalselflove


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